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Thursday, September 20th, 2001
2:42 pm - Still crazy . . .
Things are still pretty crazy around here. I don't remember another semester when I started off the semester with this much homework! Craziness. I really like my Advanced Creative Nonfiction Writing class, which I have with Alana=) Lots of reading, but very cool stuff=)

I'm not going to see Jess Klein after all, because she isn't going to be close enough for me to go to=( On a brighter note, I saw Melissa Ferrick last Saturday for free at Beaudoin=) It was awesome=) I went with Kelly, her friend Christina, and Christina's friend Susan. Susan is tres cool. I hope I get the chance to introduce her to y'all.As of last night, Kelly is a non-figure in my life, and is now dating Christina. Saw it coming. Not cool. Whatever! Good fodder for an essai I guess. So that's about all that's been happening with me lately. I finished all of my work from last semester before this semester started=) I wasn't cast in the play, but I'll have 3 more chances this semester. So that's that. Sorry I don't write in this things as often anymore. It's just too crazy!!!!! Hope everything is going well for all of you=) Stay sane and smile lots=)=)=)

current mood: a bit bewildered and jumbled

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Monday, September 3rd, 2001
8:13 pm - Still alive.
Hey, all. Sorry it's been so long since I've updated, things have been super crazy lately, as usual I guess. Let's see. what's happened since last time I wrote? hmmm . . . My car was totaled, for those of you who don't know yet. I was on my way home last Monday and got a flat. Kris and I both got out to change the tire. We did not have much luck! We couldn't get the stupid lug nuts off. Anyway. I was watching Kris take her turn fighting with them, then I blinked and my car was gone. Instead there was lots of glass on the road and tire marks in the grass. Not so cool. We were also standing about 5 feet further away from the road than we had been. We'd both backed up automatically. Nobody was hurt, though we were quite a bit shaken up. So anyway, I'm driving a rental now that the other guy's insurance is paying for, a green 2001 Neon. I got a pretty good settlement. I should be able to get a fairly reliable car for it and be able to register it. Very psyched! I also found out why I've been feeling sick so much. I'm anaemic and the doc's pretty sure I'm hypoglycemic too, but the results aren't back yet. So that's that. Classes start tomorrow. I am so happy to have everyone back and I am so ready for senior year, but I don't know if I'm ready to get back to classes and stuff. Actually, I am. I think. I'm still working on homework from a class last semester because I missed so many classes form being sick that my prof gave me an incomplete. My friends are back up here. I'm so happy to have Kris and Rachel and Laurel and Mary and Dube and Katie and Alana and everyone else back. Makes things so much more exciting around here. I haven't slept in like a week, since everyone started coming back. Tres cool=) Oh, I got a new job=) I'm getting done at Shop 'N Save at the end of this month and starting at Forsters in packaging. They manufacture plastic utelsils. It's not a glamorous job, but it pays really well! And I only have to work 2 days a week. And I'm still working with Tiff, of course. I would never give this job up!=) Oh, I'm trying to go see Jess Klein in Mass because I got a couple of my friends up here addicted and they want to go see her=) So if anyone else is interested, let me know. And I'm going to Sisters' this Friday night with one of my friends from up here. What are y'all doing Friday? I hope to see you all there. I haven't been to Sisters with everyone for quite a while=) Too long. Well, I guess that's about it for now. I'm sure I'll have more by the end of this week. Auditions for the first play are Thursday and Friday=) Wish me luck! Have a good night all=)

current mood: pensive

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Saturday, August 11th, 2001
9:15 pm - Census Results
Hey, y'all=) Hope everyone's having a good weekend. I just read an article on PlanetOut.com about areas found to be very gay-populated by the census, and found the following little tidbit:

After the Bay Area, the second-highest percentage of same-sex couples was reported in Santa Fe, New Mexico, at 1.95 percent of all couples, while the third was Portland, Maine, at 1.6 percent.

Portland, Maine=) Woo hoo=) Just thought I'd share. I'm on my way out now, so have a good night all;)

current mood: flirty

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Monday, July 30th, 2001
11:16 pm - The Jess Klein Concert
Was incredible. I had so much fun. It ende up being just me and my friend Sam from work, but we still had an awesome time. She's never heard of Jess Klein before, but she's a firm fan now. Jess seemed so little when she got on the stage! Until she started to sing. She told a lot of funny stories, because she said she felt liek she was in an intimate setting. She didn't play "Flirting, but I bought the CD with it on it!!!!!! Fijally! And I got to talk to her! She was the one selling the CD's, so I talked to her for a few minutes after the show. It was really cool, except I didn't really know what to say other than that the concert was awesome. She asked where we were from and what our names were and stuff. She was really friendly and funny!!!!!!! Anyway, I'm really tired, so I should go to bed now. I probably won't be able to sleep yet because I'm wired, but I should try so I can get up for aerobics tomorrow morning. I had so much fun. Jess Klein is amazing! All right, good night now. I hope you all had good evenings and have sweet dreams tonight=)

P.S. Notation about the mood below - Not that kind of high!

current mood: high

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Sunday, July 29th, 2001
2:32 pm - " Lesbian can sue in dog-mauling death "
Sharon Smith has just (finally) been awarded the right to sue for the wrongful death of her partner! There's an article at planetout.com if you want to read it. It's about time. The article said this is the first time a surviving gay or lesbian has been allowed to sue for the wrongful death of their partner, a right usually reserved for *spouses*. Baby steps=) It's sad that it happened, but exciting that the courts, thus far, are siding with Sharon Smith. Anyway, just wanted to share my excitement!

current mood: hopeful

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Saturday, July 28th, 2001
11:37 am - Almost there . . .
My friend Rach finally came yesterday. She showed up about an hour earlier than I'd expected because she left early. We walked around the Moonlight Madness thing for about five minutes then we went to the State Liquer Store, where I actually hadn't been either. I bought her a bottle of Baja Luna for her b-day and she bought some Watermelon Pucker. Then we just hung out for a while and did some furniture arranging in her new apartment. We didn't actualy do all that much of that, mostly we sat around talking, and talking, and talking. It was so nice! Then I had to go to work. But she and our friend Kim came and visited me at Shop 'N Save and stuck around for a little while, which was tres cool. I went back over to her apartment after work for the "big celebration". The reason that's in quotes is because we were all so tired that we didn't even go out. We had a couple of drinks at the apartment and just sat around talking until about 12:30. It wasn't exactly the wild night I had planned, but it was still a lot of fun. I am wiped out this morning though, and I have to go to work in a little while and work a nine-hour day. Fun stuff! (little bit o'sarcasm there!) But, tomorrow I'm on vacay again, and Monday I have the concert!!!!!!!!!! I need to sleep tonight so I will be conscious for my vacay! Well, I better go get ready for work. Have a good day all=)

current mood: tired

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Thursday, July 26th, 2001
11:34 am - Jess Klein . . .
IN CONCERT=) Monday night! I can't wait. I go on vacation again next week and I'm starting it with the Jess Klein concert Monday. Pretty good way to start! And I'm super-psyched because a girl from work, who I've been inviting to hang out with the gang who hasn't been able to do anything with us because she isn't 21 yet, is going to the concert with me. And my cousin Krisci who I haven't seen in a while and who is coming to school at UMF next year is coming too. I'm picking her up in Winslow on my way to Hallowell! And we'll hopefully be meeting Jocelyn, Kaylyn and Cassie there. Should be a lot of fun.

This is my last vacation this summer. I can't believe the summer is almost over! I don't know if I'm really ready to start classes again. This summer had flown by! I've been having so much fun=) Still plenty of fun to be had before it's over though! Alas, not today. I have to get going and get some housework done. Rach is coming tomorrow, and this apartment is NOT up for company right now. I should be cleaning right now instead of writing in my live journal and updating my profile and then checking my e-mail, but . . . I changed my lj colors. "Leprachaun" It looks pretty cool=) Well, I should go actually get some of that housework done now. Have a good day all=)

current mood: happy, excited, satisfied

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Friday, July 20th, 2001
7:20 pm - I'm back . . .
in the land of live journals and modern technology! I was pretty tired when I wrote about my trip with my Dad before. I had so much fun! It was so great just to hang out with my Dad. We had some good conversation, and enjoyed the scenery together. We both love being outdoors in the same kind of way, so we click really well when we go camping and canoeing together. We're going out for a couple of days again the week after next because I have another vacation. We'll definitely be ready to get back in the canoe by then!=)!

I went to see Melissa Ferrick last night in Ogunquit and had a blast. She was amazing!!!! She was really funny once she relaxed a bit. She was definitely nervous when she started. I really like the new 'do! I would ;p It was great being with the whole crew for the concert too. I'm so glad I found my way into this group. What an amazing crew=) I feel so blessed this summer. I'm still up on a cloud from the concert last night! It was so awesome and such a great experience! I can't wait for the concert in October!

I bought "Dar Williams: the green world" today. I probably shouldn't have spent the money, but it was just so tempting! Well, I have to go do homework now, so have a good night all, and a good weekend=)

current mood: happy, content, blissful=)

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Thursday, July 19th, 2001
1:06 pm - My Name
Michelle:

You want to be productive and feel useful, and enjoy helping solve problems. You like to be busy and not waste time. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.
Lee:


You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.
Shannon:


Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You need to learn the true value of material possessions. You have a natural protection in life. You are always saved - especially from yourself. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr.


Hmmm . . . This is intersting. I guess I need to learn to express myself and cannot tolerate being misunderstood. Not a good combination. Oh, well.

Just got back from my trip with my Dad!=) Quite a trip. We canoed 8 miles the first day and hiked 6. The second day we got up at 5:30 and left camp by 7. We canoed 20 miles and walked about 2. Loong dat!!!!!!!We woke up at 5:30 again this morning and left by 7. We canoed about 5 miles and were done! We went over 5 sets of rapids. I am a bit burnt and a bit sore, but I had soooooo much fun!=)=)=) My Dad and I talked off-and-on and just enjoyed the quite sometimes. Well I'm going to rest for a little while now before I leave for Saco to go the concert=) I can't wait=) Have a good day all=)

current mood: tired, happy, excited

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Monday, July 16th, 2001
6:42 pm - Woooo hooooo
I just came out to my folks!!!!!!!!=)=) I was showing my Mom pics of the Saco crew. When i showed her one of Erin and Janelle laying on the futon with Simon, she asked me if they were a couple. I told her they're engaged, and she asked me if I'm a lesbian too. I said "Yes" and she said "We thought you might be." Then she said it was no big deal and asked me if I'm seeing anyone, and that was it! I love my parents! Nothinig gets to them. My Mom and I are spending the rest of the evening together before my Dad and I leave on my trip tomorrow. I'm so excited=) All right, I'm going to quit gloating or whatever now and let you all go=) Have a great week=)=)

current mood: excited

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Sunday, July 15th, 2001
2:36 pm - theSpark.com
I just took more of those tests. I am definitely a woman! I am 76% pure!!!!!!!! only 14&\% are more pure than me. Hmmmmmmmmm . . . BUT, I'm also 15% slutty. Interesting . . . I'll be worth a million by the time I'm 33 in 2011. I will have sex with 2 women, one of whom I will love. The first will be in a hotel room when I'm 21. I have about 7 months left in which to accomplish this feat. I will die on May 16, 2068 at the age of 88. That's around the same age my palm and tarot reader said. Hmmmmmmmm . . . Well, that's about it. Back to homework now=) Fun stuff=);p

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Saturday, July 14th, 2001
11:33 pm - The Bar Scene
I talked to my friend Rachel tonight for about an hour. SHe's home for the summer, home being about 6 hours away, and I really miss her. She's one of my best friends. She's turning 21 on the 17th and I won't be able to take her out, BUT I just found out she's going to be here on the 27th for the night!!!!!!!!!!=)=)=) I go on vacation on the 29th and I told her I would request the 27th off too so I can take her out to the bar. I can't wait!!!!!!! Anyway, I just wanted to share my good news. I just got in and I'm incredibly tired, so goodnight all=) Sweet dreams.

current mood: tired

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8:35 am - Wet Dreams
I took the gay test again so I could make my scores available. The test had changed a bit and I scored 57% instead of 58%! I'm going straight!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!! Anyway, wet dreams . . . Erin only has a 10% chance of having a wet dream about me! Janelle on the other hand has an 84% chance. Kaylyn, 76%. Cassie 83%. Hmmmmmm . . . Got to head to work now. I'm on vacation starting tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!=)=) Talk to y'all later.

current mood: rushed

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Thursday, July 12th, 2001
5:56 pm - OK, I had to be a follower and . . .
take the test just like everyone else. I scored low on everything but Histrionic, Narcissistic and Obsessive-Compulsive. I scored moderate on those. According to this test I am relatively normal. I MUST have done something wrong! I can definitely see the ones it gave me moderate for though=) Tiff and I were discussing my obsessive-compulsive behavior just this morning!

I finally got the slides back from the first 2 rolls of film I took for the web page!!!=) I still only have a few of them scanned onto my Zip disk because it takes FOREVER to work out the brightness and color contrasts from the scan! There were a few good ones in the batch and a few really bad ones, and a lot of mediocre ones. I can't wait to get them all on screen though so can really start to play;)

Well, that's about it. I'm heading out the door in about 2 minutes to go to dinner and a movie with my friend Brandi, who I have not yet persuaded to get a live journal! We're going to see Dr.Doolittle 2. Should be cute and funny in a mindless sort of way. Nice break! Have a nice day, all=)

current mood: excited

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Wednesday, July 11th, 2001
3:06 pm - BBQ Video . . .
now available on VHS=) That's right, folks. A copy of "BBQ at Tiff's", dated 6/30/01 is now available on VHS and compatible with any standard VCR. I finally got in to the TV Studio to do the editing and to re-record the video today, so if you want to see it, Tiff and I both have copies, and if you want a copy, let me know b4 the end of the week.

On another note, I can't believe it's raining again. It's a warm rain, and it makes everything pretty, but . . . AGAIN?! IT'S SUMMER! WHERE'S THE SUN?! It's pretty though, and I think I'm going to go take a walk in it if it doesn't start to thunder and lightning, because I haven't been able to walk in the rain all week and it's pretty light right now. Anyway, I hope this dies down before my canoeing trip with my Dad next week, and stays sunny for Kaylyn's camping trip with her folks. Camping in the rain is not fun! Well, as "not fun" as camping can be=)

This is for the Saco gang. What time are you guys leaving Saco on the 19th for the concert? I'm going to try to get down before you leave so I can follow you.

Okay, I have to go clean my room now. Sharon's coming over to eat Chinese food and watch The Wizard of Oz for her b-day. She was having a craving for both=) So, bye all=)

current mood: mellow

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Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
12:59 am - Gay Test
I just took the gay test on thespark.com. I am 58% gay. Not bad if the average lesbain is only 39%. Guess that's it, it's official. I wonder which answers to some of those questions were the "gay" answers. Hmmm . . . Anyway, gn=)

current mood: a bit better

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12:33 am - Friends
It's kind of late to be writing, but I feel like writing tonight. I'm in kind of a down mood right now. My best friend, who's home in Mass for the summer, decided this afternoon to take a road trip to Farmington today and surprise everyone. So she showed up at Shop 'N Save while I was working and we made plans to spend a couple of hours together tonight before she had to go back. It was a lot of fun, but it made me feel really lonely when she drove away. Especially because things have changed between us a lot lately, and I feel kind of lonely even when I'm with her, which I know doesn't make much sense. I feel like we're growing apart. I talk about other friends, and she doesn't know them. I talk about my new favorite song and sing some of it for her, and it just doesn't appeal to her in the same way it does me. Anyway, I know I sound whiny right now, but I miss my friends who are away for the summer. I know that Kris and I will still be the best of friends once we adjust to some new aspects of both of our lives which are changing our friendship right now, and I want to have her around for all of the changes that are happening in my life right now, so it won't be like she getting to know a stranger when she comes back to school in the fall. Anyway, I'm going to go to bed now. I'm sure everything will be better in the morning=)

current mood: sad, pensive

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Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
10:51 pm - I hate titles!
hey, all. It's Tuesday night and it feels like Sunday. I just got home from work a little while ago, but that's not why it feels like Sunday. It feels like the end of the weekend becuase I just got back from spending two nights with Erin, Janelle and Kaylyn in Saco=) Have you ever looked back on how long you've known someone and been surprised by how short a time it's been. I've spent a total of between 4 and 6 days now with the folks from Saco, and it seems like much longer. The thought that they are new friends already seems foreign to my mind. Anyway, I'm rambling because I'm over-tired.

I worked at Shop 'N Save (aka Slop 'N Slave) this afternoon. It's so much fun (imagine lots of sarcasm here). it wasn't actually that bad. I was working with a couple of cool people, so we had fun. I just shaved my head about a week-and-a-half ago, and one of the guys I was working with made a comment about how he had wondered how S'NS would take it. My manager didn't seem to like it, but she didn't say anything about it. There's not much they could say anyway. There are quite a few guys on the front end with the same haircut. It would gender-discrimination if they chastised me for it. He said there's some rule that we're not supposed to do anything drastic with our hair. It has to look professional. Anyway . . .

i got to start playing with a digital video camera for my other job at the U. It's awesome. It has about a million different functions! it's fun to play with.

I'm going to go to bed now. Goodnight, all=)

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Monday, June 25th, 2001
12:21 am - Opening Remarks
Hey, all=) I've finally started my own web live journal. Now everyone can read my deepest, most intimate thoughts, or at least the deepest ones I want to share with any random stranger who wants to read this. I'm leading a pretty charmed life right now. I'm starting a new job as a photographer at my University, I'm recently "out" and loving every minute of feeling free, and I have recently met and become friends with a group of three incredible women (added to my already fantabulous group of friends). If my 2 best friends weren't away at home for summer vacation, I think things would be pretty much perfect right now. Okay, enough of the bragging. I just wanted to get this thing started. It's waaaayy past my bed time and I have aerobics tomorow morning, so good night, all=) Sweet dreams=)=)

current mood: happy, peaceful, satisfied ...

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